Sometimes the universe slaps us hard in the face. And it hurts. A lot. Recently I had decided to take on more than I could admittedly handle. I was feeling nervous about it but also excited at the potential opportunities that could come my way. Despite my excitement I was plagued by an uneasy feeling. Although the opportunity was new and exciting, it just didn’t feel right. The closer and closer I got to it, the worse and worse I started to feel. I think I was just too afraid to say no.
And then the decision was taken out of my hands.
And I’m not gonna lie it hurt my pride a little bit. I would’ve liked to of been the one who shut the doors versus someone else doing it for me. At the end of the day I think the universe knew that I wasn’t going to end it myself. It knew that I was going to stress myself out to the max. And so the universe politely stepped in and said “No. I’m taking this off your plate whether you like it or not.”
Honestly I’m grateful for it. Yes my pride was hurt, but at the end of the day I’m glad it happened. When you’re not sure you want something you shouldn’t dive in headfirst with everything you’ve got. You should take a step back and evaluate your priorities.
Here are my priorities right now: my husband and my health. I am a teacher and that creates a lot of stress. The demands on me from my job are high. I need to make sure that I’m taking time to focus on myself and my health. If my body is broken and my heart is empty then I can’t do my job. My relationship with my husband, Jordan, has had to take a back seat courtesy of my career and busy schedule. Any shortcomings in our relationship right now can be directly tied back to the fact that I spend too much time away from home. When I am home I am disconnected and focused on grading papers, entering grades, and responding to emails. With so much at stake and too much on my plate already, the universe did for me what I haven’t been able to do for myself. It said no.
This week evaluate your priorities. Say no. Clear time for the things that really matter. And if a door closes for you, know that it was for a good reason. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be. Maybe there’s something better coming your way. Or maybe you just need to slow down and take some time to focus on you and your family.
We are Amber and Jordan Kirbey. We are excited to share our experiences and ideas with you!